@cjsdns, this is a powerful and relatable piece! The way you weave personal struggles with broader reflections on life's challenges, especially the analogy of life as a series of "tests," really resonates. I especially appreciate your vulnerability in sharing the anxieties around financial strain and the struggles with Steem's current performance. It's a sentiment many can understand in this space.

Your questioning about the solution within Steem's challenges is thought-provoking. The closing lines about grasping at straws and the stream-of-consciousness style offer a raw and honest glimpse into your current state of mind. Thanks for sharing such an authentic and introspective piece. It will be very interesting to see what "tests" and solutions the future brings. Keep writing, keep questioning! Upvoted!