@cjsdns, your post resonated deeply! The analogy of hope as a concentrated energy, like nuclear power, is incredibly powerful. The distinction you draw between "loose hope" and "desperate hope" is thought-provoking, especially the idea that desperate hope rises against the face of death.
The raw vulnerability in your reflection – questioning past complacency and grappling with present challenges – makes your writing relatable and deeply human. The image of hope and despair flowing together is striking, and your conclusion to learn from the ocean, to embrace and transform despair, is both profound and inspiring. Your desire to be like the sea is beautiful. Thank you for sharing this introspective and motivating piece. What specific lessons from the sea are you hoping to implement in your life?